Today I completely ran out of cigarettes. I have been limiting myself to 3 a day and I have done a pretty good job. Today was the 3rd day. Before that i was traveling, so that didn't count. I ran out and I haven't bought more. I am chewing the gum though, so I am not totally going cold turkey.
Everyone is telling me that it isn't a good idea because of exams. Well if not exams, it would be something else. Now is as good a time as any. If I fail then I do, and that's ok. It usually takes smokers, on average, 11 tries before they finally stay quit. I am on number 6. This will be the one. This is my year. I'm 27 and not getting any younger.
Speaking of... I haven't been for a check-up with the dentist in over 4 years. Last year, one of my wisom teeth was infected and so I had an emergency extraction which cost me $200 at the VA. My healthcare is free because I am a veteran, but the dentist isn't. I am thinking about this mainly because I bit into my soft peanut butter and jelly sandwich and felt a pain in my bottom right tooth. The tooth just above it is having problems as well. A filling fell out about 3 months ago, so now I just have a hole there. I was thinking of my reasons for quitting smoking, and I thought I should also be trying to take care of my teeth if i am so concerned for my health.
Pan to me looking online for discount dental plans. All of the plans require you to pay about one hundred and thirty bucks up front. The good news is, with my teeth the way they are, I would probably make that money back in savings rather quickly. But I don't have the money to pay up front right now. I don't have any. I arranged my coins so that i have laundry money and soda at school money. I'm waiting for a check from my mom. My mom is the best. I would have had to quit school by now if it weren't for her.
I also am sneezing all the time. I should really see an allergist and figure out what I am allergic to.
Also, I haven't seen an obgyn in 2 years. I should really make an appointment. I probably have a tumor.
What the hell? I think all this stress from exams is making me a hypochondriac. On the way home from school i was thinking that i need to go on different medicine because if i ever decide to have kids i won't be able to breastfeed with the current medicine. Seriously, I am ruminating on all this crap because of stress from exams. Which is really annoying because I should just focus on things that I can control and actually do something about.
Ugh
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