38% down... and don't forget the curve...

So I'm exhausted. I've learned 38% of the material. I have essentially crammed 38% of an entire semester in my nogin over the course of 24 hours.

So I keep saying "Why did I not study earlier, why do I always wait until the last possible minute?"

Once this is over I have a very limited time to study for my Contracts final... one thing at a time, one thing at a time.

The trick is to keep my mind relaxed. Ha ha, fat chance. But seriously, if I can just relax I will have greater access to my brain's potential capacity. I will be able to store information better and retrieve it better. I have pills for anxiety and I am wondering if an externally induced relaxedness produces the same affect. I really don't think so. The nimbleness and dexterity would all be cancelled out by the additional tiredness as a side effect.

Now I need a paradigm shift. I need to have this strong and real vision to help me think of this test in such a way that I can approach it in a relaxed, calm way.

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I am eating broccoli. It is brain food. In the morning I will eat blueberries - they are also brain food. I need to remember to stand on my head. Then all the blood will rush to my brain and maybe help it work better.

I should also remember to get some red bull maybe. I don't know. I am worried about making through the entire exam without fatigue.

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My new paradigm is that in order not to fail I have to do better than 6% of my class. That is about 8 people. I can do better than 8 people.

To get a B- I will need to do better than 21% of the class. That is about 30 people out of a class of about 120 or so. I don't know if I can do it. But I am pretty sure I can. At least 15 people are saying fuck law school, and they have been saying this all semester, so not only have they done as little as I have all semester, but they also weren't cramming 38% of the material into their heads. Then there is the bullshit factor. I am really good at slinging bullshit around. That got me 10 points on the third section of last semester's final. A final in which the workhorse of the class (he studies 16 hours a day) also got 10 points on the third section. And he studied a LOT more than me. I did also, in fact, get a B on the last final. And, a girl in the class who is also a workhorse got a B-.

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I am putting all my faith on lucky number 30... Just 30 people. These grades are so arbitrary. I think I am better off. I have been goofing off all semester and enjoying my life, while another girl who is more stressed out than me, has worked harder than me, gets a B- while I get a B.

Ain't Life Grand. :)

(Paradigm shift accomplished)