Aftershocks...

The Civil Procedure final exam is done. I was ecstatic walking out of the exam. I felt so awesome, weight lifted and all that. After that I went to blockbuster to reward myself. L called while I was in blockbuster. She wanted to know how the exam went, which was incredibly sweet of her. Then I mentioned that I had 4 movies in my hand.
She said, "There is a difference between rewarding yourself and being irresponsible."

I said, "I wasn't going to get all of them - MOM!" I said this because she sounded exactly like my mother. She wasn't wrong. She was just wrong in thinking she could speak to me like my mother. I don't think a person should call their partner irresponsible unless they want a parent/child relationship. And I really don't want that. After I told her how I felt about that, she got mad at me and wouldn't talk about it anymore. She said that she is too mad about it now and she wanted to talk about it later.

What just happened? I just tried to explain that I felt like it was unhealthy for our relationship for her to call me irresponsible - she's done it before. And, I really don't think I am that irresponsible. If I goof off instead of doing things I should be doing, I take full responsibility for the consequences (and I know what the consequences are).

So now L is pissed at me.

I rented 4 DVDs, 2 of which are TV episodes of the show Medium and are therefore longer than a movie. HA!

I watched the Medium DVDs. That is a good show. I was surprised. It freaks me out that the show is based on the true life of this woman psychic, the real Allison something.

Then I studied for Transnational Law, not a smart move strategically in the studying game as my next final is in Contracts.

However, I am meeting my Transnational Law professor at 12 to go over a practice test. I want to look like I know my stuff. This is one professor I actually think is halfway good, and I have her next Fall for Immigration Law.

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Today:
-Meet with Professor
-Eat Lunch
-Study Contracts

That's all I have to do. And I need to get some sleep. I have been seriously having difficulty sleeping. I was so pissed of that I dreamt about civ pro last night. My brain should have dumped that information out onto the exam and never looked at it again. (My brain obviously doesn't obey me)

I also should do something about my complete lack of clean clothes. I have zero pairs of clean underwear. One pair of clean socks left. Two semi-clean pairs of pants. And, zero clean shirts.

The underwear and shirts pose the greatest problem. I am getting old. I rarely go without underwear anymore. When I was about 19, I only owned 3 or 4 pairs of underwear, because I never wore underwear except in cases of emergency or stripteases. Now I have about 20 pairs and I need more because I hate it when I run out of clean ones. I feel naked if I don't wear them. I worry that I will forget to zip the fly of my jeans and people will be able to see my *****. They will all laugh and I will be embarrassed forever.

So I will need to find time in my day for laundry, or better yet drop off a bag at the cleaners to do it for me.

I have also run out of toothpaste.

I am eating Cheerios right now - with no milk. I have no milk. It is terrible to have cereal and no milk.

How do I get all this done? Ok, let's see. I will stop at the drugstore on the way to school and pick up toothpaste and milk. NO, no, no - the milk will be bad by the time i get home. Ok, get ready to go sans underwear. Then I will get a load of laundry to drop off at the cleaners on the way to school. I will read about the Foreign Sovereign Immunities Act and the Act of State Doctrine as quickly as possible once I get there. I must remember to completely avoid all eye contact with nonapproved law students. Then I will meet with the professor, drive home and on the way i will get milk and toothpaste. Study and later pick up the clothes. Ok good plan.

I must avoid the nonapproved law students because the are all completely off their rockers right now because of finals. They transfer their anxiety to everyone they meet. And they are full of rumour and conjecture about what will be on the exam. All their theories are certain to be false and probably purposefully false to get everyone else to fail so they can get an A. There are a few students who I have approved for contact.

These approved people understand that there is a world outside of law school. They are not completely and entirely consumed by exams and they know that while we are sitting in our ventilated classrooms, paying for lunch with student loans, and taking luxuries like spending all day studying - there are people starving in the world. There are people at war. There houses bombed. Their families gone. These approved students know these exams are barely a beep on the radar screen of life, and in the long run are meaningless. The grades are an arbitrary attempt at packaging us all in the same little boxes made of ticky-tack and stamped outside with a giant number (our class rank), so we can be sent off into the world, measured and prejudged.

I gotta get in the shower...